Could you be going through a transition? This morning whilst journaling I arrived at an epiphany.
“For the last few days, I have felt a bit flat. The best way to describe it is having spent months climbing to the top of a mountain, staying there and enjoying the view, I suddenly awoke at the bottom of another mountain. I am reluctant to climb again and I feel deflated. I would rather turn back and go home.
I understood as I wrote that I have come to the end of one journey and I am reluctant to begin the next phase. I also admitted to myself that my reluctance stems from 2 reasons:
1) I want to absolve myself of the responsibility of delivering the picture I have in my mind to the world.
2) I don’t want to go through the stress of climbing like I did previously. I just want to stay and enjoy the view.
Here’s how I got out of it. I recognise now that the last few months have been about gathering the tools and weapons needed for this new phase. I am not the same person, I have grown. I am experienced, mature and equipped to travel this new path.
If you are on the verge of starting something new, don’t stall. Start. You are ready. The last few years/months have been about this new phase. You have gathered all that you need to not only survive but to thrive as well. That picture you have of your future- it is your responsibility to deliver it. Just like it is a mother’s responsibility to bring into the world the baby she is carrying in her womb. No matter how painful labour is, she has to give birth. The last nine months were all about her body stretching and preparing for the process of birthing, emotionally and spiritually she was also being prepared. No one can nurture her child like she can. In the same way, no one can nurture your dream like you can.
Furthermore, this new journey will be nothing like the last. It is not a repetition of past challenges. This is a brand new season for a brand new you to seize. On the subject of repetition, I learned years ago to stop looking back and joining the dots of my previous challenges. Choose instead to see each one as separate and unrelated, yet they all have been sent to train and equip you for where you stand today.
Finally, celebrate the end of the last journey. Mark it so that your spirit, soul, and body recognise that it is finished. Transition is a phase in itself and time and energy need to be allocated to it.